How Can I Be So Healthy And Yet So Sick?

I am a healthy person. I am careful about what I do to my body most of the time, and I listen carefully and quickly when my body wants rest. My biggest fear in starting a family is not being able to take care of myself as well as required to avoid illness.

So how is it that I seem to be sick all the time? I know I am often a bit too flippant with saying I'm sick when my stomach acts up...to me that's not sick, it's really just maintenance of a genetic condition...but how do you explain that to people who have zero idea what you are going through? It's just easier to say you are sick. I suppose my cousin feels that way with her lupus. It's so hard to explain that maintenance is required and that we aren't like other people...but that does not mean we are unhealthy...just different...but when we add all the illnesses that normal people get, it seems like ALOT....only because we didn't start on a level playing field!

Yep, we add the cold I inevitably catch once a year on a CT trip, then the 2 baby tummy bugs I caught this summer...throw in my almost year long stomach illness from that superbug that ate through my intestines, which probably only got so bad because I had a stomach condition...oh, and lest we forget the biopsy and the stitches this week...
I think everybody in my life just assumes I'm sickly...and I'm really not...

When I was home these last two trips, my Mom worried about me sleeping so much and feeling so rundown...gotta admit it was great...I'm so used to being on my own, and I do like it that way, but there are certain ways only a Mother can show you she cares...and when she tells her twin sister she's worried about your health, HEAVEN!!! Not heaven that she worries, but heaven that someone notices and cares so much, and she's my Mommy:-)

Everytime I get sick in CT it is so worth it...it's usually from a baby putting chewed food into my mouth or shoving their little baby fingers into my mouth, or giving me kisses...and I will remember those kisses forever, I am tearing up just thinking about it...the cold I have right now? So miniscule compared to the puppy dog kisses Annie gave me a mere week ago...or the giggles from Lizzie as she put her hand in my mouth...or the yelps of glee from Ellie as she gave me her wet kisses...gosh, I am so lucky...

My poor Miss Julia was sick today so apparently she and Auntie Beth fended off the illness longer than most other family members...my Julia is such an angel with her porcelain fair skin and blonde hair...I can just picture her curled up in bed, cheeks rosy from her fever, those gorgeous eyes begging for some TLC...makes my heart break...I thought it was just CT, but for the first time in almost a decade in CA, everyone seems sick everywhere in the country...just as many of my friends are sick in CA as in CT...unprecedented...my running joke used to be that I had to go to CT to catch anything...hope this countrywide illness thingie is just a fluke...

I am a healthy chick...but in the end, I balance that with not missing out on the good stuff...planes air makes me ill but I travel to those I love with zeal, I greedily embrace baby goo, and of course I eat naughty stuff...and my diet coke!!! Love my diet coke...

Perhaps I am also fighting the aging process a bit...the mundane stuff that throws a wrench in my life, like a questionable mammogram having to be redone or a mole having to be removed and biopsied...these small medical events take up time and they linger, telling others that I have yet another medical dilemma on my plate...I hate that...but I'm not sure how to be truthful about what's going on with me without leaving people thinking "wow, she's always sick"...I certainly don't want to have to hide it...UGH!

Adult Content...

The kids prefer photos, so this is the adult version of my goings-on...I'll reserve it for times when I want to let me feelings out on paper without worrying about my language or subject matter...